Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Wound tight...

My Job recently changed as of last week. Previously I was helping professional people who were having a problem with their company provided cell phones. I had 10-20 min between each phone call it was leisurely. I could crochet I could chat with my co-workers I could teach them to crochet... I made blankets and hats and booties and sweaters and countless other things... I crocheted like I was a machine and I could forget and forgive that I work til 8:30 at night and only got a precious 3 hours with my husband everyday. I was relaxed I was mellow stress became entwined with love as I twisted and looped yarn on my hook.
Last week everything changed now I get to help Average Joe consumers... and I've decided those professional people who didn't pay their own bills were much nicer than Mr. Average Joe who pays his own. I recognize and acknowledge when its your own money you become more protective of it and I acknowledge that problems are frustrating but it hurts me deeply when I express a sincere and friendly desire to help someone and I hear "Don't Apologize" or "You can't possibly understand how frustrated I am" Then I am cursed at and cussed at and I can't even ask them politely to lower their voice... or to please not speak to me with that language. I have to take the abuse... I always try to treat these people the way I would hope someone would treat me I am always willing to help and I will do everything within my power to help them and for some reason my friendly warm sweet as pie approach only seems to enrage them more... I could not and would not yell and demean and belittle someone who was expressing sincerity and a genuine friendly attitude toward me no matter how upset I am. Maybe its because I've done this type of work for so long but being yelled at and cussed at and insulted all day long for trying to fix the mess even if it is the fault of the company I work for is draining and since I'm lucky to get 20 seconds of time between every screaming average Joe I no longer get to watch my stress fall off my crochet hook with every stitch. Everyday it is wound more tightly like the balls of yarn that remain untouched in my craft bag. I miss Steve now more than ever... my frustration with working and waiting my prayers for the future life we trust the Lord to provide are renewed and more fervent... A home we can raise a family in and an income that will allow me to stay at home and be the wife and mother I'm called to be. I'm also praying that God would give me a better attitude about where he has me in life... and I will trust the Lord with finishing my works in progress and unwinding all the stress built up...

Sunday, April 5, 2009

umm who doesn't love....

CHEESECAKE!!! Thats right I said it... Cheesecake is so delicious so satisfying not too sweet a little tangy creamy smooth and so rich it hangs onto your fork because the fork can't bear to part with it. I found this recipe when I was in Texas. It was my Aunt Lillian's birthday and she loves cheesecake but she'd never had REAL cheesecake just the no bake kind so in an effort to do something sweet for her (and also cuz well I missed eating REAL food) I baked her a cheesecake and schooled her in real cheesecake. I have many recipes for every flavor imagineable and even some for straight up normal cheesecake but this recipe is the easiest I've found. ( I found it on the foodnetworks website) the only real inconvenience of it is time. If you have a day before you need the cheesecake and an 8 inch springform pan you're in business! Its simple quick and I think its so easy it makes GOOOD cheesecake a real possible tangible easy to make dessert for anyone... I call it Texas cheesecake cuz thats when I discovered the recipe :)

TX cheesecake

2 cup graham cracker crumbs
4 tablespoons sugar
4 tablespoons butter, room temperature

24 ounces cream cheese (3 8 oz pkgs)
3 eggs
2 cups sugar
1 tablespoon vanilla extract

Preheat oven to 275 degrees F.
Make the Crust: Stir all ingredients with fork and press into 8-inch springform pan that has been sprayed with nonstick cooking spray.
Make the filling: Allow the cream cheese and eggs to sit out for about 1 hour before mixing. Mix the cream cheese and sugar in a mixer on low speed. Add the eggs 1 at a time; then add the vanilla.
Pour the mixture into the prepared pan and bake at 275 degrees F for 90 minutes. Turn the oven off but do not open the oven door for 3 hours. Refrigerate for 8 hours before removing from the pan.

Serve and enjoy! I haven't tried modifying this recipe just yet i imagine it would be very easy to stir some chocolate chips in and of course you can always top with fresh fruit or compote.... i can't think of a reason you couldn't get creative tho...

Saturday, April 4, 2009

3 years...

Is it really possible... How did 3 years go by so fast... Who knew 3 years could contain so much joy so much fun so much love! 3 years and not one day I wasn't giddy to see him or kiss him or laugh with him.... There hasn't been a day where I wished he wasn't in my life... So much happened in the last year... the foremost being we got married hahaha Gosh I was such a giggly grinning goof all day thinking about it remembering our journey. We spent time reflecting on the path God has led us down and how he has faithfully brought us where we are. We continue seeking him and trusting him with our lives. What can you say really We're thankful we're grateful... We are deliciously madly happily in love... being newlyweds probably has something to do with that haha I hope, we hope we're always this cute this silly this goofy. We hope we're so cute we nauseate our grand kids haha Steve is still and always my greatest gift... The same old song and dance I've said this all before but sometimes its nice to say it again... I'll even quote Rogers and Hammerstein....

I'm as corny as Kansas in August, High as a flag on the Fourth of July! If you'll excuse an expression I use,I'm in love, I'm in love,I'm in love, I'm in love,I'm in love with a wonderful guy!

I'm in love I'm in love I'm in love I'm in love... *sigh* and now i will waltz off to bed where that wonderful guy has been so sweet to preheat the sheets!! :) Marriage by the way is the best thing to happen in the last 3 years hands down....