Sunday, December 30, 2007

The Journey

Steve and I met April 3, 2006.... That is to say we met in person. We became aware of each other about a week before that. We met on Myspace.... For a more detailed story of how we met check out our wedding website... While you're there sign the guestbook :) http://www.mywedding.com/steveanddeaira/ In anycase We knew fairly soon after we met that we were meant to get married... I don't know how to explain it. It wasn't really love at first sight It was just a knowledge God revealed to us quickly. At least for me... You'd have to ask Steve for his side of the story. I certainly wasn't expecting to meet my husband on the internet in fact after years and years approximately 10 years to be exact of only ever meeting and going out with men I had met online I PRAYED I would not meet my husband on the internet. I wanted proof that I was capable of meeting a man without a keyboard. I digress... I met Steve and we corresponded online and he seemed like a nice guy not your typical “hey hot stuff I can’t wait to get in your pants” type… So I enjoyed talking to him we discovered we had a ton in common and we decided to meet… now here we are 21 months later engaged to be married with a date set…
You may be asking…How is it we knew when we’d been dating for a month we were going to get married and here we are not married almost 2 years later…. Well that is a story all about trusting the Lord and waiting for God’s perfect timing. I’m sure I will in bits and pieces reveal more about how God has worked and brought us to this place where we are and again this is probably me just unloading my wild and crazy thought processes into the great beyond but more than anything tonight I’m looking back tonight. God showed me thru a conversation with Steve that the things I had been praying for since I met him, the faith I had PAID OFF!!! What a revelation God listened to me God was working on Steve this whole time… Mind you I faithfully prayed every night… Thanking God for my most perfect gift… This wonderful sweet man who made me laugh in ways I thought were impossible who was endlessly cute and cuddly who made me a better me… I praised God every day for bringing Steve into my life… but Steve was sooo slow Why couldn’t he get the ball rolling if we were gonna get married by Oct 20 of 2007 we would need to make things happen… I kept praying that God would work on him work in him make him wake up step up to the plate be a man buy a ring talk to my Dad… Any day would be good God… I trust you I know everything will work in your perfect timing and I trust you to make this happen… I did let God handle it and trusted him to be in control even tho I shamelessly and foolishly admit I tried to rush him… I prayed every night and I told God every night I trust you I know you’re working I know this will all work out in your timing…
So obviously we didn’t get married Oct 20 of this year like we had so foolishly originally planned… We trusted God enough tho to know that he didn’t want us to get married that day and were open to his voice and his leading and were obedient to listen…
So where am I going with all of this… Steve and I had a wonderful heart to heart tonight and it was like God laying out the answers to 21 months worth of praying it was amazing to know that all this time God really was working on Steve in Steve’s heart. He was showing Steve and guiding him. Steve just didn’t know how to tell me til tonight… haha I feel vindicated and I feel relieved and more than anything I am so in love with my Savior and my God who is so wonderfully amazing and perfect. He has penned my love story with the utmost care and precision.
God told Steve God stalled Steve. God knew Oct 20 of 2007 wasn’t meant to be we had more growing to do he had more things to teach us to show us. We needed to continue trusting in him walking by faith and letting him be in charge of our relationship. I feel good… ya know now I know the valley could be just around the corner but tonight I feel like We are truly on the right path we are honoring God in our relationship we are walking by faith and trusting him… I realize these moments are probably rare but it continuously amazes me at how God works…. How his timing is perfect… How in his wonderful wisdom and omniscience he works everything together to the good for those who love him and have been called according to his purpose!!!

Praise God!!!!

1 comment:

Tiffany said...

God is amazing. He knows the best timing for everything. I think that if Sam and I had a baby earlier than we did, it would have destroyed us. And I think that us having Chloe so early and all the problems we faced together because of it brought us closer together. It is because of Chloe that Sam finally see's that I am not treated right by most of his family and he finally got the guts to stand up and defend his family! I told him that just him being hurt by them ignoring me, or not including me in things, is enough to make it easier for me to deal with. I think that the time you and Steve had apart was probably necessary, for whatever reason, in making your relationship stronger. It is a true test of love and commitment!