I had hairy legs when I got married...

I didn't have perfect skin...
I didn't have a perfect body...
I didn't have a perfect dress...
I didn't have perfect cake...
I didn't have perfect hair...
I don't have perfect memories....
I didn't plan on being high on Vicodin when I got married...
I didn't have my beautiful outdoor ceremony...I got snow...
I didn't have trees alight with fire in every picture...
I certainly didn't plan on spending the night before my wedding in ER...
I forgot to buy pie for dessert...
I forgot to ask someone to watch the punch bowl or even make punch (I love you Kelly)
I didn't have gluten free cupcakes for my dear friends... ( I had gluten free cupcake liners I was ashamed to serve)
I forgot to make sure the church was unlocked or even to make sure someone would be at church in time for my flowers and cake to be delivered...
I forgot about 50 pictures I wanted taken...
I forgot my cousin buddy is a devious practical joker who might ferret my siblings away to pull nasty pranks on our honeymoon suite...( aka our bedroom) kool-aid in the shower honestly...
I barely had time the morning of my wedding to take a shower much less anything else did I even brush my teeth??...
I didn't get to hug so many dear friends at my wedding I know they were there but I missed seeing them hugging them on that day ( this means you Danae)
I didn't get to tell one of my bridesmaids goodbye and thank her for being my lifelong friend (I love you Deana)
I feel like there are still a million people to thank for making my wedding what it was I'm sure it was beautiful I don't remember but I see thru pictures... I'm so glad my photographers were there...
I didn't get to hug my "least" favorite Aunt goodbye and tell her how Thankful I was that she was there what a joy it was to see her and how much praying with her before the ceremony meant to me...
Can a wedding be perfect? Can it be everything you'd hoped dreamed and planned... I guess not but I know God is perfect He smiled down on our wedding and was pleased I know this because God saw fit to bring Steven Louis Goble into my life and God saw fit to make me his wife... and who am I to argue with the most perfect God... God orchestrated every moment of the day every gift of love every hand that helped was his blessing so why should I care that my legs were hairy... I was still a beautiful bride and ready willing and no longer waiting to be Steve's wife....

holy moly matrimony

What a crazy crazy time and week ahead of me. Can I just say even tho I only have to work 1 more day this week before I'm off for like a whole week that I really really wish I didn't have to! Still so much to do and work just seems to consume my day and when I get off I'm like ugh my brain needs to recover hahaha I come home and the last thing I wanna do is look over my last minute lists or figure out how I'm gonna take care of that or write new lists or email so and so and yet I have no other choice cuz it must be done... there are people I'm counting on who've graciously offered to help at my request who are waiting so patiently for me to wake up and give them the info they need! I can't even sleep right haha I feel guilty for sleeping. Haha then I feel guilty for being awake and not doing what I need to do....

Steve's parents and sister are on the road they left Michigan 6am EST Monday and who knows where they are now? We hope to hear from them soon! I'm so excited to see them. Deana my bridesmaid is flying into town tomorrow and I totally can't wait to see her and hug her! Steve's brother and best friend fly in weds and my Aunt and Cousins will probably be here around that time too.

Its all coming together tiny piece by piece haha Steve and I have both said tho that sometimes it feels like we haven't done anything haha we have been so busy working to get everything taken care of we haven't been able to really stop and say WOW we paid off the cake and flowers and the rental company and we have a photographer and my dress fits hahaha those things have been plaguing me for months and the load is lifted and yet I still feel the pressure of the deadline haha like these tiny last minute details can weigh as heavily as a florist bill or a too small wedding dress!

I just have to reiterate How great is Our God! His provision for our wedding for our home for our new life together is tremendous... haha My apt matches haha I have bits and pieces of furniture lovingly gifted from friends and church family and it matches like I'd planned it haha Our apt still needs help and work but Steve has been amazing unpacking and sorting he even added little homey touches its so romantic I walk in and I'm like this is our home this is where we'll live and I'll be a wife. AAAH only 5 more days to go!!!

I'm worried about the weather haha everyone has a different opinion... My Dad trusts Accuweather.com Steve is looking at the local news stations my mom is watching the national weather service website and it seems like not one of them agree on what the weather will be like next Saturday... I'm watching the one that is the most optimistic 73 degrees and no wind with plenty of sun and a 0% chance of rain. Steven my darling pessim... I mean realist is watching the one that says 62 with a 20% chance of rain and encouraging me to set up plan b. YUCK!
God is good God is good I keep reminding myself God is good and God is in control on nights when I get off work and just wanna take a nap and when I wake up in the morning and have an hour before I have to be to work and somehow my paycheck for Friday will pay for things on Thursday God is good!

Dearest Deana...

Have you ever had a friend a friend you knew you'd always have... a Forever friend... I've always had a friend... She visited me in the hospital when I was born. We ran around church together in our tights, we screamed for our mommies together in the nursery. When we were young we played silly games with make up and picked flowers at church. We spent countless nights together giggling and telling secrets as we grew up we shared stories about boys we talked about the men we might marry. We played games of cribbage together at campout and played tic tack toe when we should've been sleeping. We swam together biked together... When those Best friends heart necklaces that came in 2 pieces were popular I made sure we had a pair. I think Deana and I did everything girls growing up could do and then we became teenagers and did more and adults and did more... We would get together once a week or once a month we'd trade plates at IHOP and clean the church singing Psalty songs. We shopped together we sang together we always seemed to have each others interest in common... I don't know what kind of impact I've had on Deana's life but I can tell you the impact she's had on mine... Deana has been like a sister... my Sunday sister... When it was time to choose bridesmaids Deana was always on the list time and knowing she was busy probably kept me back a little bit but I'm so glad God worked it out the way He did. Deana was one of the first people to book a plane ticket to come to my wedding. I could go on and on telling you about my wonderful friend. God had a special reason for placing her in my life. She continues to be special even when she's far away and even when we don't talk when I knew Deana would be here with me I immediately felt better and immediately was reminded of how dear and special she is to me. There's poetry to Deana being in my wedding without Deana I may not have ever thought God had a special young man for me to marry. I wouldn't have had someone to share the burden of being single I wouldn't have had someone who understood the pure delicious joy it is when God writes your love story. She chose a beautiful dress its so Deana and I love it... I'm so excited to see her and even more excited she gets to share this special time in my life with me... Our prayers we're answered dear Deana and God has delivered us both wonderful Godly husbands! I can't wait to see you and hug you dear friend!!!