My poor miserable Steve...
This week was a little lesson in selflessness for me... On Tuesday Steve came down with some bug the flu or something... Monday he was fine we went to the florist and turned in our contract. We had lunch at a great new place. (
http://www.genghisgrill.com/) We totally loved it! We had Starbucks and we enjoyed a typical Monday for us... Tuesday even started out normal... We talked on the phone Tuesday morning and he complained of a sore throat and stuff but had cough drops and I shouldn’t worry. By the time he came home Tuesday night poor guy had a 101 degree fever was freezing cold and just miserable.
Now I have felt off for a few weeks little sore throat and an occasional twinge in my ears. Lacking for health insurance and hating to burden anyone I Love (like my fiancé or my Dad) with paying for a full price doctor’s visit and prescriptions. I’ve been trying to tough it out with vitamins, prayer and cough drops! Taking care of Steve made it worse haha or his bug attacked me at the same time it attacked him although not as aggressively thankfully...
It was a lesson in selflessness tho because all I wanted to do myself was climb in my bed and snuggle up in the warm covers and sleep like a rock. Poor Steve could hardly walk across the house to the bathroom or sit up in bed to take a shot of Nyquil. So I sat and I watched and I tried to do all those things you remember your mom doing when you're sick as a kid. I put a cool washcloth on his forehead and I made his Alka Seltzer flu cocktails every 4 hours as directed and made sure he drank every drop. When his fever broke and he was more himself I fed him baloney sandwiches (the only food he wanted.) When his temperature spiked to 103.9 I prepared myself to bully him into going to the ER. Thankfully it broke soon after and never spiked again!!!
So hear I sound all noble and selfless putting aside my own feelings to take care of him, and I did!!! Inside I was grumbling and chastising myself because well I wanted to be the one in bed being brought juice and being hugged and kept warm. Then I was chastising myself in the next thought when I realized this isn't the first and only time I will nurse Steve thru the flu. Next time I might also be nursing a very needy sick baby, Steve and Myself and we might just be a little miserable family. I look at is as my job to sacrifice when I can to be selfless and care for him when he's sick even when I'm sick or less sick in this case.
In the past we've had colds together and we've agreed its much more fun to be sick together than apart. We cuddle on the couch and watch movies or the Food Network. We drink hot tea and eat soup. When I’m sick Steve always remembers Hot and Sour soup is my version of Chicken noodle he always stops and gets it take out. (That stuff is magic for head colds!) This time it wasn't as much fun not because we weren't together cuddling or drinking hot tea with honey but because I wanted to be sick. I wanted to be taken care of and bless his heart he knew I was internally grumbling... (And yes Steve I’m sorry maybe I lied a little when I told you I was fine. I’m sorry I was striving to be fine to accept that this is part of my calling to be your wife.)
I would also like to add that when I'm sick and Steve is healthy he is the picture of selfless caregiver! He moves heaven and earth to make sure I have medicine, Orange juice and all those special things I need when I'm sick! He's a very very good nurse... In fact it was less that 2 weeks after we met I realized I could marry him when he sat with me at Urgent care for 3 hours while I waited to be seen. He passed me fresh kleenex and let me use his shoulder as a pillow.
Steve has since told me (Now that he's a little more himself) that he couldn't have made it thru the last 3 days without my cuddles, kisses on his forehead, and probing the thermometer into his reluctant mouth... For all of my grumbling and self-chastising he needed me and appreciated me. Today he even let me sleep while he kept watch. He even told me as a reward I get Pho woo hoo!!! :) Pho makes for a very happy Deaira! I just hope I feel well enough to eat it soon! Nothing sounds better right now than slurping up hot steaming noodles and broth. Dipping thin slices of rare steak into hoisin and chili sauce that will clear my sinuses if only for one precious hour… I think I feel better just thinking about it…
Sushi Night- We went out to dinner with our friends Joey and Danae. We had a fabulous time and hope we can hang out with them again sometime. I ate Octopus. Steve ate Eel and we’re hoping Joey’s taste buds have grown back after the extra spicy tuna roll we shared! We hope to have dinner with them again soon. What will we eat next? Japanese? Indian? Thai maybe?
Deaira and the amazing technicolors dream shoes- I had been wanting a pair of these new trendy oh so cute flats in a wild funky pattern all unique and eclectic shoes most people would look at and go wow I have nothing to wear those with! I found them haha I even had money to buy then as they were on sale for $9.99 at target… they’re so cute and funky and perfect they’re the best shoes I could ever imagine I wish I could wear them every day but then well maybe they might not be around when I’m 80 for me to show my grand children the most awesome pair of shoes I’ve ever owned in my life…
Thankfulness-a friend from church recently moved her mother into a retirement home and generously offered us any furniture we may need to start our married life. We got 2 dressers, a night stand, a coffee table, an end table and a dining room set along with an adorable strawberry shaped cookie jar. We’re so grateful and woo hoo we’re paying rent on our very first place together… a storage unit on McCarran! God is good and his blessings are many! Thank you Bette and Dawn! We also have a lead on a couch YAY!!!
BABIES!!!- I know so many pregnant mommies… ok so really I only know 3, but its still so exciting! Babies are always such a wonderful blessing. It is so nice to go to church and see a tiny one or hear that sweet tiny little cry. Its so fun to talk to my best friend and help her pick out baby names and plan… I had the opportunity to make a baby shower cake for a young woman at church recently and just wanted to show it off… my plan was to make a pretty gourmet cake well I saw these adorable candies and had to make it a baby cake… I also made a very cool crafty diapers cake. The shower was wonderful tho. Good food and fellowship and cute kids! Thanks Mrs. Lear it was a wonderful time! 
So happy together…- Once again I just have to remark on how wonderful my Steve is… watching him grow watching us grow together sometimes the way he responds to me in love and his support boggles my mind. He’ll say the most sweet things or he’ll realize before I even have that maybe something he said was selfish and he apologizes before I even have a chance to feel like he did something wrong or think something is wrong he’s asking me to forgive him. When I think he’s going to react one way he reacts in the totally opposite perfect way… he constantly surprises me and its these delicious perfect surprises in what I view as an already wonderful relationship that make it truly special.. Its weird to think you know someone and be surprised when you find out they're better than you originally thought...
Still waiting… and praying… -Still hoping for a job to come along applying in a lot of places even places where I’d hate to work. I’m getting so frustrated I have my wedding planned but no money to pay for it… on a plus side I’m ordering my dress soon and buying Steve’s wedding band with my tax refund… 
