Our Family...

It struck me tonight that in 104 days Steve and I will be a family... OUR own family just me and him no one else we will have made OUR own family... I don't mean the combining of my family and his family into one bigger family I mean our very own me and him ( with the option to add on little blessings) family apart from our parents and siblings. It will be just the 2 of us. For some reason when I realized this it had a big emotional impact on me... My family will be Steve... He'll be the one I wake up with Christmas morning to open presents... He will be the person notified first if anything happens to me. He will be the benefactor on my life insurance policy and all of that other legal mumbo jumbo... I will be all of those things for him and he will be all of those things for me. I wonder if maybe some people would be a little off kilter about that, but ya know it feels soooo right to me like thats the way it is thats the way its meant to be.
We're reading this book together called "The Mystery of Marriage" by Mike Mason in it the author compares marriage to the encounter in the garden of Eden recognizing bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh... The first encounter between Adam and Eve how he recognized her as a part of himself different but a part of himself nonetheless. He went on to say that we as humans and in marriage are always trying to create or get back to those moments of recognizing each other on that basic level. Steve and I feel that we see that... I think we do kind of recognize each other I can't claim we experienced love at first site but probably pretty quickly we realized "hey you're the other half of me" even more so as we grew and nurtured our relationship it has become abundantly clear to us... God meant for us to be together God brought him to me... I can say without sounding cheesy or cliche about it that Steve makes me a better me... I don't find my identity in him and he doesn't complete me only God can do that... but he makes me the me I want to be the me I couldn't ever quite pin point on my own. I am that me when I am with him... I can't explain it any better than that... In our own silly billy way we are a family as if we always had been always knew each other as if our lives never existed separately we are a family... We will be Steven and Deaira Goble, Mr and Mrs Goble... The Gobles... a wonderful loving husband and a silly sappy wife :) hahaha in 104 days..... 103.... 102...

The dress debacle continues: A solution...

Finally a solution... after weeks of uncertainty and worrying and wondering what in the world I was going to do... I have a solution... 3 buttons and a yard and a half of fabric.... Who knew it would be so simple... a dress i couldn't even zip... sleeves i couldn't even get my arms in... a seamstress who told me the dress was 6 sizes too small and would require 15 yards of fabric to fix... and the solution is in a yard and a half of white satin and 3 buttons... A family friend and dear teacher from my youth came to my rescue... I spent an hour with her monday we ripped seams and measured here and there... I tried the dress on 3 times... and we found by letting out the sleeves we could almost close the dress 1-2 inches shy of zipping it all the way up GLORIOSKI!!! we can add gussets in the sleeves and a laced panel up the back to give it a corset type look.... She's also going to bustle the train for me... Its soo wonderful such a huge relief... My friend Kelly told me not to worry Janet is a miracle worker and she is. I'm so Thankful I called just to ask if she had advice. Now it seems like it will be an easy breezy painless thing to do that won't cost me much money at all to fix! My beautiful dress will be exactly that my beautiful perfect wedding dress and i get to be a floaty angelic bohemian bride hahaha I'm floating on wisps of chiffon! ok maybe not yet but i will be when its finally finished!

The 11th

I decided back in October of 2007 to start a count down for steve and I. i didn't wanna count down 365 days that was way too many to keep track of... so i decided on months being in Texas at the time i decided that on the 11th of every month leading up to our wedding I would give Steve a card. I write a personal note in each one just commenting on how much i love him how excited i am about our wedding. I remind him of the blessings we've recieved in the month and the work God is doing in us. I put leaves in each card one leaf for each month left until we get married... Its amazing to me how quickly the last 8 months have flown by... Steve and i are realizing we only have 4 more months to really make this wedding happen and we're a little flustered but things are much better now we have a source of income from my (still crummy) job that doesn't pay often enough. We have all the ground work laid we just have to make it a reality with the finances... but its so easy to get overwhelmed and rushed. For me giving my love a card on the 11th of every month is a simple reminder that its not all about pumpkin cake and orange orchids, too small wedding dresses and sparkly wedding bands or a photographer we still haven't booked. It is about Steve and I and our future and our life together the lessons God is teaching us the trials He's putting before us and we give Him ALL the glory we have trusted Him in every step of our relationship thus far we have seen Him do miraculous wonderful things we never could have imagined... It is about us him working thru us our blessings are so rich...but I still can't wait to eat pumpkin cake!!

The Great Wedding Dress Debacle...

It was Thursday June 5th. I went over to Mom's house early that day to get some stuff done decided to take a power nap before I dove in to all the stuff on my to do list... I laid down and peacefully rested for 15 min when I heard Mom walk in the house saying my name sounding so excited. I met her at the bedroom door and there in her hand was a pillow shaped package that could only contain the one thing I've been waiting for in the mail.... MY WEDDING DRESS!!!!

In a flurry there were 3 womentearing into the package and fluffing tulle. My mom who was telling us to go faster so she could get to work, my sister who just couldn't wait to see it and me the blushing bride so excited and glowing at the possibility of FINALLY looking on the dress I'll wear on my wedding day.... We tore into it and I stripped down in a whirlwind. We exclaimed over the dainty pearl detailing we ran our hands luxuriously thru the soft airy chiffon... and before I knew it Charel was slipping the dress over my head... I felt it slide on and with it slid on a little bit of my excitement and joy. This was it finally after all that waiting... after 27 years of dreaming about my wedding... my wedding dress was here and I could try it on and everything was going to be....
WHAT Mommy I can't get my arm in the sleeve.... and she couldn't zip it....
My beautiful (and it is sooo amazingly beautiful) wedding dress is too small... My "supposedly" custom made wedding dress is too small... I am at a loss as to what to do next... Of course I emailed the company I purchased it from right away and implored how they would be willing to help me they said send up $90 for shipping with your correct measurements and we'll send you a new dress... well that's all fine and well but I sent them the correct measurements the first time and they didn't change I double checked them after I got the too small dress of dreams and I didn't grow... my other option find a local seamstress to help with the alterations... ok I did that she informed me the dress is 6 inches too small.... and she would need 5 yards of each kind of fabric (Chiffon, satin and taffeta) to make the dress fit... I have no idea what to do this is my dream dress this is literally the dress I see myself in when I imagine my wedding... I did everything right I was professionally fitted and measured. I bought and wore all of my underwear for the wedding to that fitting... I converted all of my measurements into inches and cm since my dress was being made in China I wanted to eliminate any confusion... I did everything above and beyond right... in some cases I even added an inch or 2 to my measurement to ensure that in that one spot I'd be comfortable and... sure enough that one spot is where its extra tight... I have another appointment with a seamstress in a week. I'm scared to request a replacement from the company cuz I have no idea what measurements to send them and I'd hate to go thru all of that only to have it still be the wrong size... I just want my pretty dress I wanna put it on and twirl around and feel like the blushing bride I'm going to be... So Saddy Sad.... :(

SAVE THE DATE!!!

We're finally getting around to sending out our save the date cards(2 months late) to all of our out of town friends and family. We got them printed yesterday and will hopefully have them in the mail in the next week. In other wedding news we've updated our Wedding website with some new goodies like information about hotel accomadations and our registry. It has stories and pictures and lots of fun stuff! I will (hopefully) be keeping it up to date with dates and times of all of our upcoming wedding events and new information as we finalize the details. It also has a place for people to RSVP. If you drop by leave a note. http://www.mywedding.com/steveanddeaira/index.html